The Other Side

You always look at the other side & you wonder if you had done something so bad that you are forced to be in this side. Yes there was a time when I look back at now there was sufficient time & period to have it done but then like always you are at the right place but a wrong time and this means only one thing that even though it has existed before your own eyes you have failed to see it and by the time you do see it then it is on the other side.

You had an early sign but then you did nothing about it or rather it was a period when the Black Rabbit took over your senses you ended up failing to see what the White Rabbit was showing you. Even after all that you still at times managed to wake up to your sense only to go back into the hole which the Black Rabbit was leading you.

It is not a path which one should have taken but you took and by the time you came off it the White Rabbit is not there anymore and you just look at it from the other side wondering each & every day that you had missed out something in life and the whole purpose of the original way down the path which was taken was lost.

Now you are a lost ship without a harbor to go back to and all you can do is keep wandering and then put everything out on hope wishing that it would take a turn in your side. Hope at times cannot just help you and despite your faith in hope reality is a horrible thing which makes it even tougher on what can happen and what cannot happen.

I am still banking on hope and I always did believe that if there was a One no matter how much fate plays against you in the end you would be united with the One but then is the One what you think is the One?

Maybe a fresh start is needed or maybe you just need to leave everything and go off to a different place where things maybe different but then when something is deeply engraved in you that it may never ever leave you but all I am hoping is that sometime in the future the wait should be worth it and it would make me the happiest man on the Earth.

How I wish I had a time machine to set right things and this is the only thing I would set right as I know that for sure that if I set it right things would be great forever but then there is something which tells me that maybe it is all for good and this will be the final battle one has to conquer to overcome fate and get united with One.

I do wish this was the One and the path is worth the risk taken but then all I know that is that it is getting darker and the light which seems to show up just is not a light after all but a flicker. I would do anything to set it right but what reality has in store is something which I cannot predict nor control. I am sorry for the lost opportunities and all I am asking is that I have not really asked for something but if this does happen it will be good if not it will be one the things among the many things which never went the way it should have gone.